Baby Fever

There are so many of my friends that are getting ready to have a baby or just had a baby. Congrats to Brenda! I am soooooooooooo happy for you! I am not going lie though. It's really difficult for me right now. I am waiting for a call to bring home our future daughter. I am scared to death that she might not stay w/us and be taken away like that last one. Like a pg woman I am expecting a baby, but I have no idea when that will be. It's driving me nuts! So for right now I need lots of baby fixes, especially w/baby girls! I can't explain how I feel. It's just really hard to watch all my good friends give birth to more babies. I think I have finally excepted the hard fact that Vince and I will not be able to conceive w/out major medical intervention. It hurts and I am okay about it. I just want my family. If we end up adopting all of our children, then so beit!
I went to the hospital today to hold a new baby of one of my friends and had to hold the tears in. I am so incredibely happy for her! She was in my shoes not too long ago. I just have to keep being patient and wait for "the call". I have to say though, that I am so completely ready for her this time. I have her bag packed, the rooms ready, my house is in okay order. I feel ready!!!